College!!!

So I finally registered for college this year... I'm pretty nervous and yet excited at the same time... I took a year of school and can't wait to start again... It's going to be weird since I'll no absolutely nobody at my school but that's the fun... I like challenges and I'm ready for new friends... A new chapter in my life begins... Can't wait for my orientation so I can register for my classes...

Almost A Year!!!

It's almost a year since I've moved from Cali... It's weird but yet ok...

Moving in with boyfirend or girlfriend wrong before marriage???

This is a very controversial topic to this day... Honestly it's 2010 not the 1800's where you have to court a girl then get married to leave with each other... When dating someone of the opposite sex or same sex for some how often do you see the other in their home life... For the person you could be dating acts different while out or those few nights you stay at their place... The best way to get to know someone is to move in with each other before marriage... That way you could learn the faults and flaws and people newsflash everyone isn't perfect... Like here's an example a neat freak and a slob are dating(no offense) and they get married before living together... How long is it going to take the neat freak going to take it??? I'm not saying it won't work but it would be nice to see what your getting yourself into before you get married... Also just because young people aren't living together, don't assume they haven't done it... Bloody hell!!! Most people lose their virginity's in high school or college... Then there is the religion and beliefs... Honestly someone like myself who isn't reliogious to me it's not a big deal... Parents think hard about when you were young seriously... You should support you kids and talk to them... Talk to them about safe sex but that does get tiring after learning about it since elementary school... Also talk about finances and don't be sarcastic and rude.... Be kind and loving and honestly even if you say no will they truely listen to you... I mean come on it's their choice and they are adults... All I can say is support your kids and this religious beliefs keep to yourself... Get with the times!!!

Family!!!

What defines a family??? Let's see what the dictionary definition is of Family... Family is any group of persons closely related by blood, as parents, children, uncles, aunts, and cousins.... So where does love come into this equation??? I mean do you do you have to love your family???? Especially when your family can be arrogant, judgemental, and religious.... Well not my entire family but at least one side is... They can be so hurtful and mean that makes you question the meaning of family... Also it ruins the pretty picture that your family isn't perfect and your fucked up like others... I'm confused because I'm my Father's only child and my Mother's second child... Am I half an only child??? Doesn't matter anyway my father doesn't care anyways.... I know for one thing that some of my family don't even know me and I bloody related to them.... What does that say about them??? Where in this equation does love come in??? I mean why can't family be happy with your choices and support you because they love you??? No instead they have to control you and if you want their love you have to listen... Bloody wankers, sod off it's out life!!! I'm sure you made mistakes in your past and learned from them... Doesn't mean we can't make our own and newsflash once the teen hits eighteen legally you have no say in what they do... All you can do is support their choices... Stop treating us like a damn baby because honestly that will only bloody push us away... No wonder people say, "Friends are Family we choose" it makes more sense then our own bloody families...

Rare Blushing!!!

Listening to "Good Night Sweet Girl" by Ghost of the Robot very good song... Ghost of the Robot's lead singer is none other than the amazing James Marsters... This song is amazing but what is even more amazing is his voice... I love James Marsters for his acting especially playing as Spike... I first heard his singing talents in "Once More With Feeling" the Buffy musical episode... Well back to the blushing part... I've been texting an old crush who shall remain nameless in this blog... I met him during summer school one year and the moment I first saw him from a distance he was average... In closer inspection he was amazing and he's the type of guy that can look good with long and short hair... He looks very charmingly handsome with his glasses... I can list so many things that I like:

*Very cute eyes

*Amazing personality

*Knee buckling smile

See and that's just a few of his amazing qualities about him... Also I'll never tell him or maybe I will but he smells so good... I always loved hugging him because that meant I got to smell him... That's rare to find in a guy cause most guys use axe, old spice, and other body spray... I don't know what he uses but it is amazing.... I miss him so much... He's one of the guys that aren't easy to forget... I'm glad I didn't forget cause he's really great to talk to... He's made me blush so many times today from his compliments today... He's a true gentleman and I wouldn't forget that... He's the one example that chivalry isn't dead.... I'm hoping when I'm visiting Cali, I can visit him...

Easter!!!

So my Easter was pretty chill... I watched Repo! The Genetic Opera... I also going to start a new tradition of watching Buffy The Vampire Slayer "Once More With Feeling" It's such a good episode... I tear up during the ending... I love all the songs and basically know them by heart... I sing along through the whole episode... I have all the songs on my i-pod but I want the album for myself... The whole cast does amazingly in this episode... It's a shame that Alyson Hannigan doesn't have more singing parts but I understand that she has stage fright... Happy Easter everyone!!!

10 years!!!

Today is the the 10 anniversary of my step father's death... Every year I say it's going to get better but it doesn't... I haven't been able to let go and put him to rest in my heart... I know he wasn't my biological father but he loved... He cared more about me than my real father... He always believed in me and let me do whatever I wanted... I miss him so much and I know he's proud of me... I love him and miss him so much... I love you Daddy!!!